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Sorry to do this to you guys... I'm researching the difference between online communication and face-to-face communication. Please take a few minutes to fill out this poll.

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Do you use an instant messenger program?

If yes, then what is the primary usage of that program? (Check all that apply)

How often do you use the instant messenger program?

How often do you talk to people face-to-face?

Do you find that talking to friends on instant messenger is different than talking to them in person?

Briefly explain your answer:

Is it easier for you to talk about important/personal issues on instant messenger or in person?

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I can't believe I was such a stupid skank hobag slutbox. Jeff just broke up with ME this time, over AIM, again, and I can't even find the energy to type. I'm like, almost crying, omg. I'll have to break out the saran wrap again to protect my computer, I swear, my room is about to be flooded with tears, I am that demolished. Reduced to a sad sack of sadness. And he probably hates me now, he said "we're never ever ever I swear on my mother's future grave going to get back together" which hurt like NO OTHER, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. THIS IS EVEN WORSER THAN THE FIRST TIME AROUND!! Ugh I feel so EMPTY, it's like my heart was ripped out of my chest and put through a meat grinder, made into a pie, and force-fed back to me. I don't think I'll ever be able to date again EVER EVER EVER. EVAR!! And all because I was too busy to go to dinner! Ugh, this sucks. Am all alone. Will never date again. *emotear* Everything is horrible, I'm going to go into my closet and cry.

Jeffie has stood me up too many times. I mean, what a fucking doucheface hobag slutbox hookerbottle. God. What the hell. Is it too much to ask for one date??? OBVIOUSLY. I HATE BOYS. GODDAMN. THEY ARE SO STUPID.
So I just broke up with him over AIM. It was really drawn out and angsty. Really, I think we're both like crying rivers right now. I had to cover my computer in plastic so that I don't ruin it with my tears. The grammar in that sentence is probably all kinds of wrong but I am just TOO UPSET right now to fix it! MY HEART IS SO BROKEN! BROKEN LIKE BROKEN GLASS!

QUESTION FOR UCSC PEOPLE!

Is there a tap-dancing class? I need to take tap-dancing again. This means I should re-attach the taps to my tap shoes.

new layout

you know, in case anyone's interested.

it's not really a new layout, though, just a new color scheme. and a new background picture.

toothpastefordinner.com

only if they'll write a synopsis for the film instead. which should happen anyway.

Playlist!

1. The Winner Is | Danna/DeVotchKa
2. Light & Day | The Polyphonic Spree
3. Lloyd, I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken | Camera Obscura
4. Don't Stop Believin' | Journey
5. Train In Vain (Stand By Me) | The Clash
6. Jump (For My Love) | The Pointer Sisters
7. I'm A Terrible Person | Rooney
8. The Jack Slap Cheer | The Matches
9. Ooh La La | Goldfrapp
10. Rapture Of The Deep | Deep Purple
11. Slow Hands | Interpol
12. Reach For The Sky | Social Distortion
13. Espionage | Green Day
14. Dark Blue | Jack's Mannequin
15. Road To Joy | Bright Eyes

My homework
for Music Theory
is to make a mix CD.
SO FUCKING AWESOME.

funny how tomorrow seems like just another day instead of the death sentence it once was. i guess that's a good thing.

i actually like the quote on the organizers this year. it's not cheesy, it's not overused, and it's not Yoda.

( for those who don't know )

quick! i'm choosing between
my original choice (1 semester of adv. photo and adv. afro-haitian then one semester of adv. ceramics),
my second choice (year-round photo & ceramics),
and a new choice (year-round photo, ceramics, or afro-haitian and year-round band so they have percussionists)

and i don't know if i'm allowed to change anything now.

i really hope i am...
because 3 music classes a day would be amazing.

this music makes me want to dance. it's not poppy. it's not upbeat. it's not downbeat either. it's just so pretty. i want to dance to it.

i'm leaving today. and by leaving i mean coming home. for good. call me around five if you wanna hang out. i won't have any money until tomorrow, because that's when i cash all my checks. i gotta go shower and pack now. :D

TODAY it was my day off. i walked to caz (the town, in which theres a post office and a general store. there's not even a bank. theres a load of hicks though) with Liana Miles and Casey Jones, because it was also THEIR day off. although, Casey doesn't work on K-crew so he had to be back by 5. LAME. he's a CIT. LAME. he's going to be on K-crew during Family Camp though. Liana's only going to be there for the first week. LAME. also, 2 of my cabinmates left today. LAME. ANYHOW. we walked to Caz and got icecream at the general store, then went into the game room like right next to it and Casey beat me at pool, then lost on a technicality to Liana. it was hellsa funny. i watched the Fairly OddParents because it's the BEST SHOW EVER and also there was a TV in the game room. SOOO after pool we played "Fact or Crap" which was actually this REALLY crap game. like REALLY crap. after that we decided to walk back, even though Casey had like two and a half hours before he had to be back at camp. And then we found this playground. it had a carousel-type thing, a cool bouncy horse (LIANA AND CASEY BOTH RODE THE DONKEY!), monkey bars, and a twisty slide. we satyed there and listened to Liana's iPod for like half an hour. we got back to camp around 3:30 and forgot to sign back in, but that's okay. we went swimming in the creek until 5, then Casey had to go back to work, and I took a shower. Liana practiced, I think... she just told me just now but can't remember herself. after my shower it was dinner time (burgers, YES!) and i ate down by the creek with Liana. :D UMMMMM and then it was the staff vs. locals softball game, and i played in it and was 2 for 2 (which means i got 2 hits for the 2 times i was at bat, for you non-sports people) but i scored once because JON BETTS GOT OUT right after i got on first. LAME. the locals beat us 40 to 19, but we beat the campers like 21 to 7. so there. i should go, because Liana's waiting for the computer.

ps. Liana's my other lesbian lover, except she's SO STRAIGHT that it hurts.

i got a permit, yay! my mom had to do a lot of cajoling over the phone but now i have one. so awesome.

write me?
Megan Gaebler
c/o Caz PAC
P.O. Box 140
Cazadero, CA
95421

okay. so i went down to the school today to get a work permit. unfortunately, the school offices are closed until august 1. well... that sucks. so i came home, my mom found an application online, and i was like, "...well what if i filled this out anyway and turned it in on august 1?" except... my mom called the district superintendent and they were like "um no, nobody's gonna be there until august 12." by which time camp will be over, unless i work family camp. i dont know what working without a permit means, maybe that i dont get paid, which would suck hella much.

but what this also means is that i couldnt have worked at peet's even if i'd've wanted to. because the offices are closed. and i couldn't have gotten a permit. :P

i dont know if its even worth it for me to go up there anyway. i want to so bad. i was so excited for it and now im like... well shit. i dont know. i hope i can still work there. i should keep trying anita.

( quizzle )

GUYS! MY ROOM IS CLEAN! acutally, ACTUALLY CLEAN! for those of you who've never seen my room, you have to understand, this NEVER happens. like, dude, even the DESKS are clean. i even vaccuumed. there are still two shelves (out of like 12) that have crap on them, but ill go through that later.

but CLEAN! and its going to stay that way for at least 2 weeks. you know why? because im not going to be there to mess it up. :D

i have a job, folks. it's at caz. it's working in the kitchen. i start at 6 everyday. well acutally i start on tuesday at six. so... awesome. but i have to go buy some khaki pants and old jeans. oh well. goodwill, here i come.

anyway, what this means is that i'm leaving on tuesday and not coming back until august 5th. maybe not even till august 20th, if anita needs me for that long. some k-crew people might flake out on her for family camp, and then she would need me, and then i would know people who are campers there, like jacob and lena. and that would be awesome.

but what this means, is that i can't go arting on the 30th. sorry, phia!

ben, no i should NOT put my speakers on the same wall, because i set them up in opposite corners and it sounds AMAZING (and also i have nowhere to put the other one if i want it on the same wall). especially when i turn up the music. OH GOD. i listened to "Bohemian Rhapsody" like 3 times in a row because (a) i love it and (b) its in stereo, and takes advantage of both speakers. AND ITS AMAZING. and i only wish i could find the balance control on my stereo. i dont think it exists. i need a better stereo, so i can control bass and treble too. man. oh well though. i heart my new(ly set up) room.

later, by which i mean now, im going to Caz to see my brother's concert. am i going to listen to it? probably not. am i going to pretend that i did? of course. i mean... ill listen if hes in the jazz band, but usually the regular band hellsa sucks. i mean nothing.